It was one of those things we always wanted to happen, it just wasn’t in (what we thought) was our plan was YET! I mean, I always wanted to be a Mom and Aaron always wanted to be a Dad…but there were just a few more things that we wanted to “check off” our list before we wanted to become responsible for a tiny human! Like, travel for a few weeks to Italy and have a sip at every vineyard, make it to 5 or 6 more baseball stadiums and sleep in just a few more mornings before a “schedule” became our routine!
Well God has many other plans for us.
This, I have to admit, has been one of the only surprises that we’ve had during our marriage that has been “happy”! Countless times over the past 5 ½ years have we been surprised and have had our life up heaved without warming….but THIS, I have to say has put a smile on our faces since the moment we found out (well sort of….)
To make a long story short, those two pink lines appeared on the pregnancy test early one Sunday morning while I was home alone. I had taken a few others that had been negative and had chalked up my “irregularity” to the wind and just thought that there was “something wrong with me!” Now I know that those constant trips to the bathroom and feelings of starvation in the middle of the night weren’t just “weird’! They meant something!
I saw those two pink links, preceded to freak out and have a few meltdowns (while standing naked in our bathroom waiting for the shower water to heat up, but that’s a detail you probably didn’t need to know!) After a few crying fits, because I wanted to call my Mom, and a few pleas to God of “HOW CAN THIS BE TRUE?!” I pulled myself together, zipped up my coat and headed out to church knowing, in the back on my mind, that this had to be wrong and there is NO WAY (well, ok…not NO way) that I could be the “P” word (I couldn’t quite say it at this time yet)!
After a few long and awkward conversations at church with my husband (because I was mortified to tell him) I proceeded to jet out the doors and race to the few errands I had to run! He called on his way home and again, we had a few awkward moments of “Em, are you ok?”
“Yea…….I’m just fiiinnnnnne.”
“Really, your fine? Because you’ve been acting strange all day and are you sure nothing is up?”
I then proceeded to drill him on what his afternoon plans were and what bathroom of our house he planned to use that afternoon (which I’m sure only raised more questions as to my sanity). You see, in the hustle of my meltdowns after seeing those two pink lines, I threw the pregnancy test down onto the back of the toilet and I REALLY didn’t want him walking into the bathroom to find it lying there. I wanted to be the one to tell him. So I did. I told him what happened and that he was going to be a Dad! :)
I burst into tears and (little did we know) this was just the beginning of crazy hormonal pregnant Emily!
After a few hours and my afternoon chores done, I burst through the door of our house and hugged Aaron the tightest I think I have ever hugged him! It was real. HOLY MOLY! We were going to do this. We were going to be parents and be raise little baby…..woah. And even though I saw those 2 pink lines, I had to call the nurse first thing Monday morning just to be sure. I set my alarm for 7:58, so that I had time to actually try and get rid of my morning voice before calling, and out came the world on the other end of the phone, “Well…CONGRATULATIONS, you are going to be a Mom!” The idea hadn’t (and still kinda hasn’t sunk it yet) but we know that every parent “figures it out” and so will we. Sure, we are downright scared and I am mortified that I don’t have my Mom or Dad with me, but we have endless amounts of friends, families, inlays, extended families, cool-blog-stalker friends and many more that have and will come along side of us for this journey!
So…it all ended with a card! A card we sent out to our family and friends as we are thrilled to announce the arrival of Baby Steffen in June! YAY for babies! We have a HUGE change ahead of us but we are eager to learn the world of parenthood and sleepless nights, bottles, diapers, tiny clothes….
Gosh, I have a lot of sewing and knitting to do! :)